Forget it!

This is not the first time.
Its time and again
you keep doing this crime
of inflicting pain.

Your words and actions make
even the most optimistic
person to wilt and break
as though he had arsenic.

What did you gain?
You made a great profit?
Did I lose?
Certainly yes, but I can't prove it.

The time has come to bounce back.
All the good people
deserve a rich payback.
The time has come to be grateful

to the deserving hearts.

Yes, the forgotten ones
are to be remembered.

The once favored ones
are slowy falling out of place
and slowy failing to come along.

The remembered ones
are to be forgotten
before it is too long.

Freedom from all that scares me ...

It doesn't always occur to me
when I meet someone for the first time.

I did not know I will end up
calling you one of my best friends.

Quite surprising to consider you
as my soul mate
when
You knew nothing about me
and You know nothing about me.

When I am lonely, my phone rings
its your phone call.
When you are around its relaxed evenings
is all that I can recall.

Quite amazing to see someone
walk around making loads of fun.

You are not worried about what people think
and you speak up your heart in a blink.

I may not tell you my problems
You may not recognise the symptoms
But I feel am the emperor of the kingdom.
I enjoy complete freedom.

Freedom from all that scares me.
When I talk to you.

You are special!!

Cheer up and keep smiling!

The head was beaten with a mace
Pain was written all over the face.

It was bleeding through the nose
going through a life full of woes.

Tired and weak are the legs
not ready to walk the path plagued
with dreadful hostility.

Broken but still heavy is the heart
and the mind is being ripped apart.

Does that sum up what you are going through?

Loads and loads of words spoken
But I kept my ears closed and deaf.

Now,
All my ears are ready and wide open
But you are dumb.

Speak up!

A six required of the last ball?
Let the batsman know. Make the call.

I'm ready to reach out and be your help-line
but do not want to cross the line.

You speak up!
Before you break down.

Get ready to shed the scar tissues.
and be eager to try new avenues.

Gear up and keep going
Cheer up and keep smiling!

The fear of ...

After 2-3 weeks of running errands and a packed schedule in office and in personal life, I thought this weekend would be the right time to unwind, put my hands behind my head and lift my legs up.

This is not the first time that this thought has come to my mind and this is not the first time that I fell sick just when I wanted to sit and relax.

Since childhood, I had always feared falling sick. Taking medicines or having an injection is all ok.
But having to lie down on the bed, not knowing what is happening inside my body worries me.

I have been living alone for the past 7 years. Everytime I had fallen sick, as long as I was in India, I would just go and stay with my parents or some relatives. It gives a comfort feeling.


After all, this is just a viral fever. But if you look at me now, you might think he has been bitten by some alien. I am afraid. It shows up in my face, it shows up in my body language. I have never been able to tell myself "this is ok".

Thankfully, long time friends who know this "weakness" in me have made sure to make me feel at ease. E-mails, Phone calls, home made food, personal visits amidst their tight schedule and making sure I spend more time on bed than staying online.

You are wonderful! Thanks

http://www.youtube.com/v/aNGVnNIxRUU&hl=en

Moods ...

8:00 am - Tired, yearning.
9:00 am - silent, slow, body relaxed, mind active
10:00 am - Strong, great ideas, perfect, confident
11:00 am - Missing, love, clueless, lost.
12:00 noon - Hungry, searching, lonely, shy
1:00 pm - active, energy, rush
2:00 pm - home sick
3:00 pm - useless, all talk, no sense
4:00 pm - happy, loud
5:00 pm - accomplishment, self appreciation
6:00 pm - hungry, talkative
7:00 pm - sleepy, tired
8:00 pm - thinking, love, belonging
9:00 pm - blank, missing, love, searching
10:00 pm - poor planning, worst execution, good for nothing, useless.
1:10 am - clueless

You woke me up ...

I would not have picked up the phone
if it was someone else on the line.

I would never mind being sleep deprived
if your call makes me feel revived.

I had went late to bed thinking of you
oh I dont know where did you go.
I went to bed but still I missed you

I slowly dozed off and did not know when
Rolled over the bed again and again.

Being sleepless is not new to me
You may also know how it is to be
being miles away and not seeing each other.

We might have differences
but I will always wait with patience
to meet you or at least to hear your voice.

Ah! finally my phone vibrates
It is going to be another beautiful day
needless to say
I woke up to your phone call as always.
You have made my day!
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Hello amma!

http://www.youtube.com/v/A6P4OxIPVXw&hl=en

I wanna travel the world with you...

* Yellow Stone National Park
* Death Valley
* Sequoia National Park
* New York / Manhattan
* Philadelphia
* Atlantic City
* Howe's Cave

This is apart from several visits to places in the Bay Area.
Ooh its a huge list in 4-6 months considering that I was at home during Thanks Giving and Christmas holidays!

In the past few days, I have been thinking I should go on a trip again.

I dont seem to be satisified with the visits I have made to these places. Either I did not spend enough quality time there or these places are so appealing that they are worth another visit.

A trip to India is also due.

This is how my calendar looks now:

So far I have never planned and made a trip. May be that explains why I always felt that I had missed something at the end of every trip.

This year I have already lost 3 months. Let see how many new places I visit and how satisfied I would be at the end of every trip.

I would be more than happy to go NY once by end of this year!

http://www.youtube.com/v/DLEVufgrcmo&hl=en