Forget it!

This is not the first time.
Its time and again
you keep doing this crime
of inflicting pain.

Your words and actions make
even the most optimistic
person to wilt and break
as though he had arsenic.

What did you gain?
You made a great profit?
Did I lose?
Certainly yes, but I can't prove it.

The time has come to bounce back.
All the good people
deserve a rich payback.
The time has come to be grateful

to the deserving hearts.

Yes, the forgotten ones
are to be remembered.

The once favored ones
are slowy falling out of place
and slowy failing to come along.

The remembered ones
are to be forgotten
before it is too long.

Freedom from all that scares me ...

It doesn't always occur to me
when I meet someone for the first time.

I did not know I will end up
calling you one of my best friends.

Quite surprising to consider you
as my soul mate
when
You knew nothing about me
and You know nothing about me.

When I am lonely, my phone rings
its your phone call.
When you are around its relaxed evenings
is all that I can recall.

Quite amazing to see someone
walk around making loads of fun.

You are not worried about what people think
and you speak up your heart in a blink.

I may not tell you my problems
You may not recognise the symptoms
But I feel am the emperor of the kingdom.
I enjoy complete freedom.

Freedom from all that scares me.
When I talk to you.

You are special!!

Cheer up and keep smiling!

The head was beaten with a mace
Pain was written all over the face.

It was bleeding through the nose
going through a life full of woes.

Tired and weak are the legs
not ready to walk the path plagued
with dreadful hostility.

Broken but still heavy is the heart
and the mind is being ripped apart.

Does that sum up what you are going through?

Loads and loads of words spoken
But I kept my ears closed and deaf.

Now,
All my ears are ready and wide open
But you are dumb.

Speak up!

A six required of the last ball?
Let the batsman know. Make the call.

I'm ready to reach out and be your help-line
but do not want to cross the line.

You speak up!
Before you break down.

Get ready to shed the scar tissues.
and be eager to try new avenues.

Gear up and keep going
Cheer up and keep smiling!

The fear of ...

After 2-3 weeks of running errands and a packed schedule in office and in personal life, I thought this weekend would be the right time to unwind, put my hands behind my head and lift my legs up.

This is not the first time that this thought has come to my mind and this is not the first time that I fell sick just when I wanted to sit and relax.

Since childhood, I had always feared falling sick. Taking medicines or having an injection is all ok.
But having to lie down on the bed, not knowing what is happening inside my body worries me.

I have been living alone for the past 7 years. Everytime I had fallen sick, as long as I was in India, I would just go and stay with my parents or some relatives. It gives a comfort feeling.


After all, this is just a viral fever. But if you look at me now, you might think he has been bitten by some alien. I am afraid. It shows up in my face, it shows up in my body language. I have never been able to tell myself "this is ok".

Thankfully, long time friends who know this "weakness" in me have made sure to make me feel at ease. E-mails, Phone calls, home made food, personal visits amidst their tight schedule and making sure I spend more time on bed than staying online.

You are wonderful! Thanks

http://www.youtube.com/v/aNGVnNIxRUU&hl=en

Moods ...

8:00 am - Tired, yearning.
9:00 am - silent, slow, body relaxed, mind active
10:00 am - Strong, great ideas, perfect, confident
11:00 am - Missing, love, clueless, lost.
12:00 noon - Hungry, searching, lonely, shy
1:00 pm - active, energy, rush
2:00 pm - home sick
3:00 pm - useless, all talk, no sense
4:00 pm - happy, loud
5:00 pm - accomplishment, self appreciation
6:00 pm - hungry, talkative
7:00 pm - sleepy, tired
8:00 pm - thinking, love, belonging
9:00 pm - blank, missing, love, searching
10:00 pm - poor planning, worst execution, good for nothing, useless.
1:10 am - clueless

You woke me up ...

I would not have picked up the phone
if it was someone else on the line.

I would never mind being sleep deprived
if your call makes me feel revived.

I had went late to bed thinking of you
oh I dont know where did you go.
I went to bed but still I missed you

I slowly dozed off and did not know when
Rolled over the bed again and again.

Being sleepless is not new to me
You may also know how it is to be
being miles away and not seeing each other.

We might have differences
but I will always wait with patience
to meet you or at least to hear your voice.

Ah! finally my phone vibrates
It is going to be another beautiful day
needless to say
I woke up to your phone call as always.
You have made my day!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Hello amma!

http://www.youtube.com/v/A6P4OxIPVXw&hl=en

I wanna travel the world with you...

* Yellow Stone National Park
* Death Valley
* Sequoia National Park
* New York / Manhattan
* Philadelphia
* Atlantic City
* Howe's Cave

This is apart from several visits to places in the Bay Area.
Ooh its a huge list in 4-6 months considering that I was at home during Thanks Giving and Christmas holidays!

In the past few days, I have been thinking I should go on a trip again.

I dont seem to be satisified with the visits I have made to these places. Either I did not spend enough quality time there or these places are so appealing that they are worth another visit.

A trip to India is also due.

This is how my calendar looks now:

So far I have never planned and made a trip. May be that explains why I always felt that I had missed something at the end of every trip.

This year I have already lost 3 months. Let see how many new places I visit and how satisfied I would be at the end of every trip.

I would be more than happy to go NY once by end of this year!

http://www.youtube.com/v/DLEVufgrcmo&hl=en

Read somewhere...

If you never failed, you never lived!
Life = Risk

Stand and stare, its worth the time

It is yet another working day.
So what? there could be no better way
to make a head start on this Monday.

Picking up my laptop I walked away
from my house, running towards the pathway
humming the Jamaican reggae.

Wait a moment. Dont rush through
You have got something to view.

What I saw was Spring time classic
Flowers of pink were a sight fantastic.
all "placed" on my car as a graphic.

For a moment the day was not hectic,
I felt, It was a piece of nature's gimmic.
A theme for a poet's lyric.

It was warm and cloudy
felt better even though it was windy.

You got a meeting at nine.
So what? Its all going to be fine.
Stand and stare, its worth the time.

You may not get to see this again.

Chak de India

Its alright you made a mistake.
Its not now to play the blame game.

Everyone knew he was a committed player
You had a great trust in him and so
you chose him to be the penalty striker.

You thought he was so special
You wanted him to go to the next level.

He was feeling so elated
when he was called upon.
He wanted your wish to be granted.

Your interst can not be ridiculed
His ambitions suddenly got refueled.

The time has come to shoot out
We have done all the required work out.

He walks towards the goal, head held high
You wanted him to give a genuine try.

After he shot at it,he could hear the people sigh
he had missed, he drowned and was shy.

It was all over for him, his fate?
But others who saw the match could not relate.
He was called a traitor.

Chak de India!

He came back to prove everyone wrong.
You might be right, he is special and great.

You dont have to feel bad to have picked on him
to have a go at the goal.
He realised he is special
He thanks you for you felt he was great.

Chak de India!

http://www.youtube.com/v/nBdi3Cm1cLc

On my way to ...

I left you 2 years ago
I did not know what was to follow.

I did not know I am going too far
I did not know I am going to miss your love and care.

Here I made some new friends
I spent time with them all weekends.

This was my new life, I thought
This was my old dream, I knew.

I dont remember how you look
I failed to see you in my phone book.

All these did not bother me
I was all lucky and happy.

But today, I spoke to you.
This whole world looks new.

I feel I dont belong here any more
What happened to me? I am unsure.

How did I forget you?
Why did not I chat with you on yahoo?

The moment you said, "I miss you"
It pricked me, What am I going to do?

You are so eager to meet
you are so upbeat and you want to greet.

I failed to realize all these.
I promise to relieve you from these worries.

I will be there soon.
I am on my way to meet you all.


http://www.youtube.com/v/fnozH1wpafY

This one is for you ...

"For everyone here who's ever been counted out but refused to be knocked out, for everyone who has stumbled but stood right back up, and for everyone who works hard and never gives up -- this one is for you,"

I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears, and sweat. We have before us an ordeal of the most grievous kind. We have before us many, many months of struggle and suffering.

You ask, what is our aim? I can answer in one word. It is victory. Victory at all costs - Victory in spite of all terrors - Victory, however long and hard the road may be, for without victory there is no survival.Let that be realized.

I never expect to lose. Even when I'm the underdog, I still prepare a victory speech.

The ultimate victory in competition is derived from the inner satisfaction of knowing that you have done your best and that you have gotten the most out of what you had to give.

Looking at the stars...

When I looked up at the stars
I realized you are not that far.

I have decided to follow you
and stepped on a few thorns that someone threw.

whssss! they all poked in and tore,
not as painful as when you left through the door.

My feet have started feeling cold
with the rush of oozing blood.

My legs have become so numb
and my heart doesn't care when onlookers call me dumb.

I want to get closer to you
Come closer to me. Will you?

No. Stay wherever you are.
There are thorns everywhere.

I don't want to hurt you.
I do care for you.

The path is not that easier,
butI will not let you wait forever.

Baby, we can make it in our lifetime.
We still haven't run out of time.

The restaurant where we had our dinner
busy and active, still stands there.
I am here to stay alone and stare
You have gone leaving me in tears.

Misty eyes, I am looking at the stars
You are not that far.
I will get to you, stay there.

The world we know

If only I were three years younger
I would not be thinking now
What if I had been a little smarter.

I want you to continue to be mine.
you have proved to be the best
not just now but time and again.

It is not so easy to leave you there
somewhere miles away and just remember
the days we spent together.

There are so many throwing in baits
I am tempted to grab them
not knowing what awaits.

What you said over our last phone call
will always echoe in my ears
until I make the next phone call.

It is going to take a while
stay relaxed and keep me focused
until we decide our lifestyle.

One day the world we know
will come to know
when we make the final vow.

http://www.youtube.com/v/Fa5u42SAyDk

Fakers!

In a dramatic turn of events, I was pulled down to the reality for one more time. It has always been difficult to identify good from bad. Everyone around moves with some ulterior motive.There is no hug that is really warm and the kisses are dry and fake.

For a long time I had been happy. I was happy because I was left alone to do what I liked doing.I had full control of everything that happened in my life. Things are changing slowly. Everyone else tries to dicatate me.

Did I ask him to give that? Why on earth he chose me when there are so many others and why the hell he gave it to me and then just take it back?

My life is simple. I wake up, do whatever I like and then I go to bed before I wake up again.Now, people show up here and there, show off as though they are interested in me and my life. They walk around me talking of ways to "fix" my life.Are these people really trying to be a good help?

And then, there is another set of people who just dont realise I am no way responsible for their current situation. You chose your way and I chose mine.Why are you jealouson on me? Am I dumb not to realise that from the way you talk to me and others?

You lie, you make fun and we all laugh. These lies are just for fun - I read in MSN that sun will set @ 2 pm next thursday. And now, there is another category of love.
You lie that you are sick because you dont want to show up at work. You lie that you love me because you want a favor from me. Help me! You suck at lying. I can easily spot you bluffing.

People, everyone is smart. Just stop thinking that you are smarter than me.

Face to Face

Everything looked good
It was an euphoric mood
Everyone had their eyes glued
to watch us play.

You talked so sweet
You made me feel upbeat.
I did not realise you were a big cheat.
Now you have made me a dead meat.

Though nothing went according to the plan
I continued to act like a gentleman
and you continued to drop me on hard pan.
I was hurt and bleeding.

You forgot what we spoke
you rejoiced in front of your home folks.
You have done everything to provoke
here I am, silently licking my wound
only to rise and awake.

Face to face @ Perth
Good bye!

India wins @ Perth