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2011-10-02T18:18:00.000-07:00

Everything I view
reminds me of you.
the streets we wandered
the traffic lights we waited
the restaurants we went
the gifts you sent
everything I see
are times that were breezy.

Saved voice mails I hear
brings me tears.
Tears after realizing
that you treat me as a blessing.
Your love for me
shows up in your voice.
and I am happy to know
I am your first choice.
The words you pick
weren't all that romantic
but when you conveyed
in your voice my heart swayed.

Life looks beautiful
when we look back.
Simple moments in life
are great when we playback.

I want to stay young
not because I want to fling
with a rush of blood.

I want to stay young
to keep my memory powered
and flashback what I captured

A simple way to remind me
we both are awesome!

Finish on top!!

2011-08-06T09:35:00.000-07:00

I am spreading my wings
and growing in stature.
This is my nature
and this is me.

I would soar high up in the sky
and disappear from your eyes.
If this is what you thought
No, I will not.

Try shooting me down
I may fall down -
fall down with a thud
but I'll not go down as a dud.

You can sideline me
and make me fall off the cliff
and you thought you can write me off.
No, you can't.

I'll find my way back
and be on track
I'' beat you to the punch
and finish on top.

I am here to stay.
You have no choice
but to move away.

The stage is all set!!

2011-06-12T20:02:00.000-07:00

When you are not winning

you know you are not trying.

When it isn't happy and satisfying

you know you are not getting

everything you need.

When that happens, you know ...

This isn't the time to rest

This is the time to run fast

towards your goal.

This isn't the place to sleep

This is the place to dive deep

and learn more.

This isn't the energy for you to brood

This is the energy for you to change your mood

and get running.

The stage is all set

for you to kick start

your journey to the top.

Be the Champ!

The Life is not enough

2011-01-17T23:29:00.000-08:00

On a cold winter night
as I sit here to write
memories rush through straight
from my heart.

Like the gloomy yellow street light
On this cold winter night
the memories though not bright
bring warmth to my heart.

Soaked in useless and wandering thoughts

I browse those pictures of u and me

recollecting the moments that brought

u to me.

Like the fog and the drizzle outside
made the roads look not so wide
the thoughts and feelings inside
made my big heart look not so huge.

Baby...this heart isn't enough to

to lock all those memories

This life isn't enough to

to live all those dream moments.

Memories of the past

Dreams of the future

Where is the time for the reality of the present?

This life isn't enough to

live the life I want to.

How long?

2010-01-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

Happiness!
Satisfaction!
Peace!
Freedom!
Pride!
Dignity!

I'll wait. But how long?

Forget it!

2008-05-05T21:41:00.000-07:00

This is not the first time.
Its time and again
you keep doing this crime
of inflicting pain.

Your words and actions make
even the most optimistic
person to wilt and break
as though he had arsenic.

What did you gain?
You made a great profit?
Did I lose?
Certainly yes, but I can't prove it.

The time has come to bounce back.
All the good people
deserve a rich payback.
The time has come to be grateful

to the deserving hearts.

Yes, the forgotten ones
are to be remembered.

The once favored ones
are slowy falling out of place
and slowy failing to come along.

The remembered ones
are to be forgotten
before it is too long.

Freedom from all that scares me ...

2008-04-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

It doesn't always occur to me
when I meet someone for the first time.

I did not know I will end up
calling you one of my best friends.

Quite surprising to consider you
as my soul mate
when
You knew nothing about me
and You know nothing about me.

When I am lonely, my phone rings
its your phone call.
When you are around its relaxed evenings
is all that I can recall.

Quite amazing to see someone
walk around making loads of fun.

You are not worried about what people think
and you speak up your heart in a blink.

I may not tell you my problems
You may not recognise the symptoms
But I feel am the emperor of the kingdom.
I enjoy complete freedom.

Freedom from all that scares me.
When I talk to you.

You are special!!

Cheer up and keep smiling!

2008-04-17T18:33:00.000-07:00

The head was beaten with a mace
Pain was written all over the face.

It was bleeding through the nose
going through a life full of woes.

Tired and weak are the legs
not ready to walk the path plagued
with dreadful hostility.

Broken but still heavy is the heart
and the mind is being ripped apart.

Does that sum up what you are going through?

Loads and loads of words spoken
But I kept my ears closed and deaf.

Now,
All my ears are ready and wide open
But you are dumb.

Speak up!

A six required of the last ball?
Let the batsman know. Make the call.

I'm ready to reach out and be your help-line
but do not want to cross the line.

You speak up!
Before you break down.

Get ready to shed the scar tissues.
and be eager to try new avenues.

Gear up and keep going
Cheer up and keep smiling!

The fear of ...

2008-04-09T09:33:00.000-07:00

After 2-3 weeks of running errands and a packed schedule in office and in personal life, I thought this weekend would be the right time to unwind, put my hands behind my head and lift my legs up.

This is not the first time that this thought has come to my mind and this is not the first time that I fell sick just when I wanted to sit and relax.

Since childhood, I had always feared falling sick. Taking medicines or having an injection is all ok.
But having to lie down on the bed, not knowing what is happening inside my body worries me.

I have been living alone for the past 7 years. Everytime I had fallen sick, as long as I was in India, I would just go and stay with my parents or some relatives. It gives a comfort feeling.

After all, this is just a viral fever. But if you look at me now, you might think he has been bitten by some alien. I am afraid. It shows up in my face, it shows up in my body language. I have never been able to tell myself "this is ok".

Thankfully, long time friends who know this "weakness" in me have made sure to make me feel at ease. E-mails, Phone calls, home made food, personal visits amidst their tight schedule and making sure I spend more time on bed than staying online.

You are wonderful! Thanks

http://www.youtube.com/v/aNGVnNIxRUU&hl=en

Moods ...

2008-04-04T00:54:00.000-07:00

8:00 am - Tired, yearning.
9:00 am - silent, slow, body relaxed, mind active
10:00 am - Strong, great ideas, perfect, confident
11:00 am - Missing, love, clueless, lost.
12:00 noon - Hungry, searching, lonely, shy
1:00 pm - active, energy, rush
2:00 pm - home sick
3:00 pm - useless, all talk, no sense
4:00 pm - happy, loud
5:00 pm - accomplishment, self appreciation
6:00 pm - hungry, talkative
7:00 pm - sleepy, tired
8:00 pm - thinking, love, belonging
9:00 pm - blank, missing, love, searching
10:00 pm - poor planning, worst execution, good for nothing, useless.
1:10 am - clueless

You woke me up ...

2008-03-30T20:07:00.000-07:00

I would not have picked up the phone
if it was someone else on the line.

I would never mind being sleep deprived
if your call makes me feel revived.

I had went late to bed thinking of you
oh I dont know where did you go.
I went to bed but still I missed you

I slowly dozed off and did not know when
Rolled over the bed again and again.

Being sleepless is not new to me
You may also know how it is to be
being miles away and not seeing each other.

We might have differences
but I will always wait with patience
to meet you or at least to hear your voice.

Ah! finally my phone vibrates
It is going to be another beautiful day
needless to say
I woke up to your phone call as always.
You have made my day!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

Hello amma!

http://www.youtube.com/v/A6P4OxIPVXw&hl=en

I wanna travel the world with you...

2008-03-26T18:48:00.000-07:00

* Yellow Stone National Park
* Death Valley
* Sequoia National Park
* New York / Manhattan
* Philadelphia
* Atlantic City
* Howe's Cave

This is apart from several visits to places in the Bay Area.
Ooh its a huge list in 4-6 months considering that I was at home during Thanks Giving and Christmas holidays!

In the past few days, I have been thinking I should go on a trip again.

I dont seem to be satisified with the visits I have made to these places. Either I did not spend enough quality time there or these places are so appealing that they are worth another visit.

A trip to India is also due.

This is how my calendar looks now:

So far I have never planned and made a trip. May be that explains why I always felt that I had missed something at the end of every trip.

This year I have already lost 3 months. Let see how many new places I visit and how satisfied I would be at the end of every trip.

I would be more than happy to go NY once by end of this year!

http://www.youtube.com/v/DLEVufgrcmo&hl=en

Read somewhere...

2008-03-22T00:42:00.001-07:00

If you never failed, you never lived!
Life = Risk

Stand and stare, its worth the time

2008-03-10T23:37:00.000-07:00

It is yet another working day.
So what? there could be no better way
to make a head start on this Monday.

Picking up my laptop I walked away
from my house, running towards the pathway
humming the Jamaican reggae.

Wait a moment. Dont rush through
You have got something to view.

What I saw was Spring time classic
Flowers of pink were a sight fantastic.
all "placed" on my car as a graphic.

For a moment the day was not hectic,
I felt, It was a piece of nature's gimmic.
A theme for a poet's lyric.

It was warm and cloudy
felt better even though it was windy.

You got a meeting at nine.
So what? Its all going to be fine.
Stand and stare, its worth the time.

You may not get to see this again.

Chak de India

2008-03-09T16:31:00.000-07:00

Its alright you made a mistake.
Its not now to play the blame game.

Everyone knew he was a committed player
You had a great trust in him and so
you chose him to be the penalty striker.

You thought he was so special
You wanted him to go to the next level.

He was feeling so elated
when he was called upon.
He wanted your wish to be granted.

Your interst can not be ridiculed
His ambitions suddenly got refueled.

The time has come to shoot out
We have done all the required work out.

He walks towards the goal, head held high
You wanted him to give a genuine try.

After he shot at it,he could hear the people sigh
he had missed, he drowned and was shy.

It was all over for him, his fate?
But others who saw the match could not relate.
He was called a traitor.

Chak de India!

He came back to prove everyone wrong.
You might be right, he is special and great.

You dont have to feel bad to have picked on him
to have a go at the goal.
He realised he is special
He thanks you for you felt he was great.

Chak de India!

http://www.youtube.com/v/nBdi3Cm1cLc

On my way to ...

2008-03-07T01:28:00.000-08:00

I left you 2 years ago
I did not know what was to follow.

I did not know I am going too far
I did not know I am going to miss your love and care.

Here I made some new friends
I spent time with them all weekends.

This was my new life, I thought
This was my old dream, I knew.

I dont remember how you look
I failed to see you in my phone book.

All these did not bother me
I was all lucky and happy.

But today, I spoke to you.
This whole world looks new.

I feel I dont belong here any more
What happened to me? I am unsure.

How did I forget you?
Why did not I chat with you on yahoo?

The moment you said, "I miss you"
It pricked me, What am I going to do?

You are so eager to meet
you are so upbeat and you want to greet.

I failed to realize all these.
I promise to relieve you from these worries.

I will be there soon.
I am on my way to meet you all.

http://www.youtube.com/v/fnozH1wpafY

This one is for you ...

2008-03-05T00:29:00.000-08:00

"For everyone here who's ever been counted out but refused to be knocked out, for everyone who has stumbled but stood right back up, and for everyone who works hard and never gives up -- this one is for you,"

I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears, and sweat. We have before us an ordeal of the most grievous kind. We have before us many, many months of struggle and suffering.

You ask, what is our aim? I can answer in one word. It is victory. Victory at all costs - Victory in spite of all terrors - Victory, however long and hard the road may be, for without victory there is no survival.Let that be realized.

I never expect to lose. Even when I'm the underdog, I still prepare a victory speech.

The ultimate victory in competition is derived from the inner satisfaction of knowing that you have done your best and that you have gotten the most out of what you had to give.

Looking at the stars...

2008-03-05T00:05:00.000-08:00

When I looked up at the stars
I realized you are not that far.

I have decided to follow you
and stepped on a few thorns that someone threw.

whssss! they all poked in and tore,
not as painful as when you left through the door.

My feet have started feeling cold
with the rush of oozing blood.

My legs have become so numb
and my heart doesn't care when onlookers call me dumb.

I want to get closer to you
Come closer to me. Will you?

No. Stay wherever you are.
There are thorns everywhere.

I don't want to hurt you.
I do care for you.

The path is not that easier,
butI will not let you wait forever.

Baby, we can make it in our lifetime.
We still haven't run out of time.

The restaurant where we had our dinner
busy and active, still stands there.
I am here to stay alone and stare
You have gone leaving me in tears.

Misty eyes, I am looking at the stars
You are not that far.
I will get to you, stay there.

The world we know

2008-01-26T17:18:00.000-08:00

If only I were three years younger
I would not be thinking now
What if I had been a little smarter.

I want you to continue to be mine.
you have proved to be the best
not just now but time and again.

It is not so easy to leave you there
somewhere miles away and just remember
the days we spent together.

There are so many throwing in baits
I am tempted to grab them
not knowing what awaits.

What you said over our last phone call
will always echoe in my ears
until I make the next phone call.

It is going to take a while
stay relaxed and keep me focused
until we decide our lifestyle.

One day the world we know
will come to know
when we make the final vow.

http://www.youtube.com/v/Fa5u42SAyDk

Fakers!

2008-01-21T00:33:00.000-08:00

In a dramatic turn of events, I was pulled down to the reality for one more time. It has always been difficult to identify good from bad. Everyone around moves with some ulterior motive.There is no hug that is really warm and the kisses are dry and fake.

For a long time I had been happy. I was happy because I was left alone to do what I liked doing.I had full control of everything that happened in my life. Things are changing slowly. Everyone else tries to dicatate me.

Did I ask him to give that? Why on earth he chose me when there are so many others and why the hell he gave it to me and then just take it back?

My life is simple. I wake up, do whatever I like and then I go to bed before I wake up again.Now, people show up here and there, show off as though they are interested in me and my life. They walk around me talking of ways to "fix" my life.Are these people really trying to be a good help?

And then, there is another set of people who just dont realise I am no way responsible for their current situation. You chose your way and I chose mine.Why are you jealouson on me? Am I dumb not to realise that from the way you talk to me and others?

You lie, you make fun and we all laugh. These lies are just for fun - I read in MSN that sun will set @ 2 pm next thursday. And now, there is another category of love.
You lie that you are sick because you dont want to show up at work. You lie that you love me because you want a favor from me. Help me! You suck at lying. I can easily spot you bluffing.

People, everyone is smart. Just stop thinking that you are smarter than me.

Face to Face

2008-01-07T16:34:00.000-08:00

Everything looked good
It was an euphoric mood
Everyone had their eyes glued
to watch us play.

You talked so sweet
You made me feel upbeat.
I did not realise you were a big cheat.
Now you have made me a dead meat.

Though nothing went according to the plan
I continued to act like a gentleman
and you continued to drop me on hard pan.
I was hurt and bleeding.

You forgot what we spoke
you rejoiced in front of your home folks.
You have done everything to provoke
here I am, silently licking my wound
only to rise and awake.

Face to face @ Perth
Good bye!

India wins @ Perth

Be the reality

2007-12-13T11:00:00.001-08:00

When I first held your hand tight
It felt like I was in the lime light.

I could feel your warmth and the love
I was not anymore like the birds above.

I quickly fell down
on my knees
like gentlemen in the past have done
infront of the ladies.

When I held your hand and took a walk
I did not worry too much about the time on the clock,
and life looked more like a cake walk.

Few words were spoken
Yet it felt like there was not any burden.
My heart was so light.

From then on,
Things look bright and breezy
When you come and pick me.

Everytime you whisper in my ears
I feel my life changes gears.

Every inch of my body
from the tip of my toes
to the tip of my nose
moves towards you.

Everything I dreamt has become a reality
You are a reality today
I dont want you to become a dream.

I feel so light and my mind is clear
when you are near.
*************here.

Did you hear?

From somewhere....

2007-12-02T11:27:00.000-08:00

deep inside.....

Sometimes the physical absense of an entity is so hard to ingest into your system...isnt it ?
You can see that things are not gonna change from what they are, yet you cant bring yourself upto gulping it down.

Its at these moments you feel like you have used all your energy.....

Missing, craving, waiting, crying, wanting, needing...and still it never seems to cease embarking its existence on the lonesome grave.

The lament is too high, the pain is too deep.
And then the pinnacle of uncertainty glides into your heart, creating humungous tidals waves of doubts and questions.

Is tomorrow, just a figment of imagination rooted deep into the crust of infinity ?
Is tomorrow, just the concept of a loner's pain of eluding the sting of nullness ?

A million questions run across your mind in a million milliseconds, yet no answer shows up.
You keep drawing circles, knowing you're gonna keep doing that for a long long time. Coz the vantage point you're looking for, is somewhere hidden in between the lines of the unseen tomorrow.

Aah.........the tomorrow !!!

Whose sole mission is catapulting the innumerable neutrons of maelstroms onto the translucent
membrane of emotions called 'LOVE' that wraps this lonely heart....
Making this lonely heart, ever more fragile....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j-W6p-N86Bw

Impulsive

2007-10-20T12:46:00.000-07:00

arbitrary, capricious, changeable, cheat, cheat-on, coquettish, double-crossing, faithless, fitful, flighty, frivolous, inconstant, irresolute, lubricious, mercurial, mutable, quicksilver, sneaking, temperamental, ticklish, two-timer, unfaithful, unpredictable, unstable, unsteady, untrue, variable, volatile, whimsical, yo-yo*

Go get some life!!

When you are around!

2007-10-02T13:57:00.000-07:00

On that cold winter night
in a restaurant with dim light
we met, we shared and we left.

There was no spark
and there was no lightning
Yet there was a flash
but just a photo flash.

Everything looked normal
I thought I would never gamble
but I was wrong.

From then,
I had slowly transpired
and got used to being with you.
I had slowly acquired
the habit of looking forward to you.

Small talks and bed time stories
all were done with lots of ease.
You came, you saw and you conquered.
I am yet to recover.

You bought me a ticket for a game
but before I could claim
you threw the ticket on to the flame.

I am not sure what was your aim
But I am no more the same
Here I'm still thinking about the game.

Now, this is my
---- To Be disContinued -----

Click! Frame!

2007-08-18T16:37:00.001-07:00

He parks his vehicle outside and slowly opens the gate.The gate squeaks and the dog lying there opens his eye lids and lifts his ears.Several years ago it was the same dreadful creature that had played a spoil sport and destroyed the seat cover. He is even more careful this time not to let this dog come his way.Luckily he is fastened with a leash.

With a big sigh of relief, as he enters the house, she stands there smiling and shy near the kitchen curtain.She looks bright and happy like those blue flowers dispersed here and there on her white chudi top.The blue bottom of her chudi looks like a baggy on the top slowly tappers down to the ankle.

He looks into her kajal lined eyes and slowly lifts his hand up.He then pulls off the kitchen curtain to have a better look at her dress.He had always wanted to buy her a chudi like that after he had seen one of her pictures where she had a similar dress.

Who is going to break the ice? Everyone else had gone out to do some shopping for her niece's Bday.The gentle breeze seeps into the house and bangs the door near the couch.They come to their senses and he takes the seat in the dinning table. It was the same place where he had dinner before leaving the country several years ago.As he sits there, she comes closer and feeling more comfortable takes the seat to his right.

They had been waiting for this day, for this moment.Last time when they were having their dinner they did not know they would come such a long way in their relationship.
Like every other day, they start talking sweet and slowly drift towards pranks and nagging and teasing each other.She tries to tease him all the way saying how she missed her guy friends.She knows that he would feel jealous whenever he hears this from her.

But this time he was right there in person when she tries the age old trick.He picks up her left hand and holds her wrist, palm facing up.She had mentioned sometime in the past, that everything was in his hands. Now he knew his whole world was in his hands. Holding her hands, he knew the whole world was in his hand.

He forgets the teasing she had put him through.He forgets how jealous and upset he was. He feels her finger tips with his right hand.His fingers run through every "regai" as though he wanted to re-write her future and add his name wherever he could.

He picks up the remote and switches off the TV that was playing "Dil deewana" in ZeeThe gentle breeze outside rattles the dry leaves outside the door.He looks into her eyes and asks her "Will you marry me?"He continues, "Honey, I love you so much, you are my world and you make so much difference in my life."

He said, "I have been waiting for you, be with me and we shall redefine our world"He explains his dream again, "I want to hold your hand like this and walk the parks in Paris, the beaches in Goa, the malls in Bangalore" "Jassie has been dreaming of a trip to Europe with me and my wife, I want to take you with me to Europe"

Just then, he gets a call from her sister and she says they are on their way back home.He pats her on her back and says "honey, it is in your hands now, relax and stay cool as you always be"

He switches on the TV and surfs to Zee Music and starts listening to one of her favourite songs "Dil deewana..."Her mom, sister, jiju, nephew and her brother all come in, they all have dinner together and as he is about to leave, she comes to drop him off the gate, she slowly steps a little closer and says "I will"

He looks up to see the moon, the stars. They are no more exciting. There is a whole new world in front of him.He has been lucky he got all he wanted.

He gets back to the house and her mom asks "did you forget something?He says, "no" and looks around. Her sister also now comes to the living room and now he says "yes I forgot something"and continues "I forgot to ask you aunty, Will you let me marry your daughter?"

Before she could reply, he quickly calls up his mom and says "mom, we have decided, you can talk to her mom and find if she wants all these to happen"

It all happened so fast. Their moms talk and decide that is the right thing to do.

from left to right on the stage -Bhabhi, Didhi, mom, him, her, jiju, Bhaiya
sitting, left to rightchota bhaiya, npehew, niece.
Snap! click! frame!

The End of restlessnessThe Beginning of a new world....

Blew away!!

2007-07-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

all characters are original.
names have been changed to with hold the identity.

So she had just received the doll he had sent from Paris.
Now, he writes to her an e-mail which she would open sitting in the couch, watching SS music at her Chennai home.

--
There is an interesting story behind your doll.

The carnival was almost over and everyone was sweating, tired and heading back to office.
The Karoke stall was just playing music and the crowd in front of the stall had depleted already and the few who were standing there were just moving their legs and arms as though they became heavier by a few pounds.

I checked my watch, this watch had lost its strap now. It is a gold plated watch which not many of you know. 23K gold from my dad.
So I had a meeting at 3 pm and had to get into office right then.

It was then that I had spotted this stall where they were giving a teddy if you hit 6 pins with 6 balls.
It was a difficult game people told me. Now I knew what I had to send for my kutty pisasu. She did not walk in front of me like the heroines do in movies.
There was no smoke around too. It was just before that the tarrot reader, an old americam lady said that I was hit by a love bug and I am going to be lucky.
Thinking how lucky I am gonna be, as I stepped into this stall I was filled with Preeti in my heart and mind

Instructions were given, hit 6 out of 6, do not cross this line and we will give you any doll you ask us.

I have played cricket long time ago. We used to play in a ground close to my house in Madras. I am an average cricketer who just goes to play because all my "girl" friends would come there as audience. Just to impress them I would run here n there, catch the ball, no no I would snatch the ball from other fielders :-)
It did not impress any one till date, that is a different story.

Azharrudin namaha! Jhonty Rhodes Namaha!

Take the ball, hit the pin! whew!! one out of one!!

claps around! "do it again, come on, do it again" some one shouted into my ears!
Like a bull, getting ready to hit someone, I was focused on my job.
The next 4 pins were all successful. 5 / 5 so far.
Hi-fi's around. Poeple hugged me. The lady who was running the stall said "this gentleman is on a mission, he is driven by something else, you did not have beer, did you?"

The final ball and a a final pin.
Took some breath and threw the ball at hit.

The lady asked me "which doll you want?"
She gave me a yellow Teddy. I got it and when I was about to move, "Preeti likes blue, doesnt she?"
Hey, I need the blue one instead of this.
Bon Jour, Madame!

So I got the blue one and was walking with heads high, springs in my heels.

"Hello Motorola..." my cell phone rings.
"Desingu Rajaaaaa, we are in the meeting room, are you in office?"
I said, "Rob I am searching for the meeting room, I will be there in 5 minutes"

Hey, Desingu Rajaaaaa, can you give me that doll?, Anjali asked me when she spotted me.
I said, no. I need this, pick anything else from my bag.

Finally I send this blue doll to my kutty pisasu.
Instead of playing with it she stacks that amongst other dolls in her cup board.

Blue away!!

Chocolates on their way, honey!!

Au revoir!!

Love you,
Rajaaaaa Desingu

Keep the change?

2007-07-17T00:47:00.000-07:00

The whole world looks different
Life is a big load of lie
I feel heavier than my weight
and my teeth are clenched together and grinding.

I go around wearing a mask
sulking all day
trying to find what had befallen me.

Brevity rules now
who else could be a big snob
when anything could incite me easily.

forgetting old things is the chosen option
new things seem to be of interest now
everything around seems to be changing.

But why is it that
I still love you
I still long for you
Why hasnt this changed?

Time to please ...

2007-06-19T20:06:00.000-07:00

I dont remember when we first met
but I remember every day after that.

I dont know why I told you my story
but I know you listened engagedly.

I dont know what you felt after you heard me
but I always feel relaxed after I tell you.

I dont know if people like you are rare
but I know I can come to you to share.

I dont know much about you as well
but I know so much to tell
that you are one of my best friends.

You have been a big surprise
and your picture always in my eyes.

Often times, I might have teased you
now I wish I can please you.

Ask me whatver
u will get all those forever.

Every morning

2007-03-26T18:49:00.000-07:00

I woke up and opened my eyes
thinking I would see you.
Only my disappointment grew.

I looked up to my cell phone
thinking I would have a voice mail
only my hopes were to derail.

I opened up my laptop
thinking I could catch you online
only my expectations were to resign.

It was very difficult to wake up
But Who said, I am gonna give up?
I know soon you are gonna turnup.

Finally I did hear from you
Enough of our hide n seek
It was so sweet to hear you speak.

A few words you spoke
have given me lots of hope.

A few minutes we spent
have made me feel jubilant.

Let things not change.
Anything for your charming smile...

You are the answer

2007-02-15T12:48:00.000-08:00

Green looks even more greener,
The days look a lot longer,
The smiles become even broader.
I know you are the answer.

My favorite color is now blue.
In everything I like, I see you.
I feel like asking you what to do.
I know you hold the clue.

Up there in the moon lit terrace
as you try every move of your dance,
I want to come up close
and look straight into your face.

But you asked me to go and rest
thinking that you are doing the best.
I bet, your act has impressed
though I am unable to digest.

Eventhough I dont see you tonight
I will be happy and bright.
I will fly high like a kite
you will be the object of my delight.

Because I will be thinking of you throughout
my life.

Thinking of U and just U

2007-02-06T18:09:00.000-08:00

This is another inexplicable situation
For folks like me this is not uncommon.

Your "Good Morning" begins my day
and You make me happy straightaway.
On any day I can make a big headway
thinking of you and just you.

Everyday, I wake up from sound sleep
and even before my eyes could peep
my mind and heart does a big leap
thinking of you and just you.

When I dont see you around
I feel like i am getting drowned.
You should know in the back ground, I'm
thinking of you and just you.

It is bad that you did not come
though you know I will feel lonesome.
Anyways I will always write you a poem
thinking of you and just you.

I spent the whole day thinking of you.
Surprised you did not show up for my rescue.
I still dont have any clue
but i will keep thinking of you and just you.

This is another inexplicable situation
For folks like me this is not uncommon.

The color is blue

2007-01-31T18:00:00.000-08:00

The color is blue everywhere
and many people show u they care.

All the birds out there fly high
and you are the apple of all eyes

Your favorite music in the air
and you are an object for fanfare.

Yet for me this is not a special day
as long as I stay away.

I waited for one long year
to wish you in your ears.

Till yesterday the wait wasn't long
now I know I was wrong.

When the clock stroke eleven forty five
my patience went for a dive

when the clock stroke eleven forty eight
I knew I could not wait.

when it was eleven forty nine
it was still not the right time.

The clock hits twelve
my impatience shelved.

Wishes flying around
people get you crowned

you stay astound
as you hear the clapping sound!

I stay here and shout out "Happy Bday!!"
Will meet you when I'm homebound.

The days good things will continue
All around the color is blue.

Setting things right!

2007-01-31T17:56:00.000-08:00

I know you will be upset.
and I know I did not do the best.

I kow you were left all alone
and you did not expect I will be gone.

I knew you will be angry
and I accept that I am faulty.

I know I have to set this right
to make you happy and look bright.

Our weekly quota for fight is over
and the rest of the week looks greener

So let us spend the rest of the week with no fight.

Forever cheerful

2006-11-06T17:46:00.000-08:00

I do not want to hide
that I feel empty inside
when you are not beside.

It is good that you made my day
when I met you in the stairway
and made me feel more than okay.

It is really sad that you stepped in
just to leave me sit here longing
and live my life just by dreaming.

I felt like this only until
you stopped by to instill
goodwill and gave my heart refilled.

I love your honey soaked words
I like your bright and cold eyes
and the fragrance around as you melt like an ice

I, like every other Adam,
will read you a poem
and you will say listening is not tiresome.

A room lit with a candle
your face featuring a dimple
you and me -
forever I will remain cheerful.

Just for you!!

2006-09-18T22:58:00.000-07:00

I wasn't born for you
you don't fit my menu 2.

But we somehow came together
n now I feel
we are made for each other

A spike in your mood
when I did not heed

your stunning silence
when I dont fill your space

your hung down face
when i don't look at u incase

you holding me tight
when I see someone bright

have all strangled me
but i enjoy all these dearly.

you have changed my mood
I have changed my mind

I am born for you
you fit my menu 2

I will make a world
just for u n me
let us be happy.

Draining down ....

2006-08-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

Sitting here all alone
I'm thinking of the days that have gone.
A feeling of love tickles down to my bone
but dont know why you have withdrawn.

I knew I can't live with you
I did not know I can't live without you.
It is sometimes tough when there is no clue.
It is always rough when there is no you.

A few good words here and there
some best moments now and then
have all turned sweet to sour.
I should have known it is now or never.

Sitting here all alone
I'm looking blank at the green lawn.
The cold wind bites my finger bones
I know that you have already gone,

causing pain and a longing feeling.

Good at 2 things

2006-05-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

Of all the things I heard in the recent past,
this is definitely an item must to post.

People sometimes make comments for fun
but this is worthy that I pen down.

It may not make sense now
But I will realise as I grow

I am not going to take this as such
and I will not debate there is none such.

We went on an outing and casually over the dinning table one of us made this comment, surprising for once everybody was nodding / acknowledging.

Here it is:

Girls are good at 2 things
- they can cry
- they can take advantage of you

No more easy to decode

2006-05-07T03:17:00.000-07:00

Jogging down the deserted road
I listened to the thoughts in my head.

Thoughts were always easy to decode
My face glowed and actions followed.

Stumbling upon something I stopped
Twinkling it is and I zeroed in.

It should have been the oddity
the real reason for the gravity.

In no time I was pulled in
n even with no initiative I was sucked in.

Little could I do to beat the gravity
no bellitling and no exagerration.

What seemed to be fun and done
looks like a ton undone.

I wish I continue jogging
and now,

Jogging down the deserted road
I listened to the thoughts in my head.
Thoughts are no more easy to decode!

This is Certain

2005-11-22T07:08:00.000-08:00

Certain places,
Certain people,
Certain hours,
Certain events reminds me!
reminds me of what?

To my friend ...

2005-10-04T21:12:00.000-07:00

On this very special day
when you celebrate your B'day
in your own style and way
I have something to say.

This is time for you to hear
and I would tell this clear.
You have been someone very dear
and I wish you are always near.

I know...

I have a hand to hold on to
I have a shoulder to cry too.
I have a very good friend in you
and people like you are very few.

For all that is done and said
at times you treated me as a kid
time to remember all you did
thank you for being my friend.

Thanking you for all the care you shower
Wishing you good luck forever
Murmuring for you a good will prayer and
Singing aloud for my friend

"Happy Bday! 2u"

With lots of Love and Prayer for you.

You deserve! Let me serve

2005-09-25T20:46:00.000-07:00

My little and tactile flower
U deserve a worthy love shower!

Katrina is too hard to handle
for my lovely little angel.

Before you had any help or clue
Rita came and you have no one to rescue.

Is this a testing time for you?
No, it is time for me to make do
with all the little I have.

I know it is all because of me
that we had to fall down from acme.

The ferocious act at sea,
people will not forget the Tsunami.

People will continue to curse
as long as they nurse
this feeling brought on to them by the hearse
carrying bodies wiped away by the Tsunami.

It is for all of us to see
a Godess sea becoming a Deadly sea.

Sea godess has a heart too.
For now, you may feel it is not true.

One day when you go on a canone
for fishing you will know.

The Sea Godess repents for all
that has happened to this doll.

One act of ferocity and "sin"
should not mean it is all now to bin.

The sea godess has a heart
and she wants to undo the act.

As always,
she feels she stands a chance
to do a act of trance.

My little and tactile flower
U deserve nothing but a love shower!

People like you ..

2005-09-12T02:11:00.000-07:00

People I have met are so many.
No not again – don’t say “Very funny”

Here it goes:-

You stumbled on me one day.
We mumbled a few words and
Took our roads – were they same?
You took yours and I took mine – at least we thought.

You found a friend for yourself in me
I found this first, when we walked to
The book stall and we talked to
Each other on how you solved a
Math percentage puzzle and much more.

I wasn’t too much involved and
Wasn’t aware of what had evolved.
Friday night dinners, and bus stop drops
Did not help me either.

I had gone on a dream trip to US
And never did I scream “I miss you”.
Winding up my small stint I returned and
Surprising - you were happy to see me.
Small talks, witty remarks, space and time
With all these, we built trust for a lifetime.

Days have passed by and now
I wish I spend time with you being near by.

I did not miss you when I was in US but
I miss you when I am here in B’Lore.

(Ok now to the theme of this story …)

People I have met are so many.
People like you are not very many.

It is my personal opinion and
I am biased – no don’t mention ssshhh!!

Success!!

2005-09-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

Success is achieved twice.

Once in the mind and the second time in the real world.

Visualizing your goals and success is an important skill for any successful leader. There is a big difference between visualizing success and achieving it.

The secret of converting dreams into reality is actually no secret at all. Honesty, hard work, some luck and good execution capabilities can help in translating dreams into reality.

Achieving Success will not be an overnight exercise. "There will be a number of obstacles to any path we take up".

When adversity strikes, one can either succumb to self pity and despair or deal with the situation with courage and dignity.

"It is only the test of fire that can make fine steel."

The Dada...

2005-07-19T22:52:00.000-07:00

Sourav Ganguly has been the ultimate comeback man of Indian cricket. His critics might call him cold, vindictive and lazy but the man has stood like a rock whenever crisis has come calling.

He has seen it all in a career spanning nine years stretching 82 Tests and 271 ODIs. Ganguly's inner strength has always been apparent.

In the county match against Kent he had told coach John Embury to expect big runs after scoring 69 in the first innings. He had a look at his shots on tape and was determined to play a big knock. His 125 ball innings studded with 15 boundaries and five sixes settled the issue.

It's this attitude which has made him captain of India and the only reason why Ganguly is India's most successful captain.

For a person like you...

2005-07-16T13:30:00.000-07:00

You make a world record to stand for your lifetime.
For that elated feeling to sink in - it just takes time.

Only after that you will realize with all your senses
that you have broken the fences
and had just done something different.

It took time for me too,
Not that I did anything special.
Not that I am trying to be humble.

I have done nothing except
Listening, listening with a nodding gesture
And “acting” to be kinder

I am feeling really thankful
For such a card that was wonderful.
Thank you so much for the card
And in disbelief I starred
Not knowing to react to the glare.

Time has given in for the feeling to sink in.

For a person like you
Friends won’t be just few.

As you said I may be 1 in a million.
But I tell you,
There is 1 in every million,
You will end up finding more friends.

Thanks for your time and care
I may end up somewhere – timer is on
But I shall always be aware
There is a friend in XXXXXX – I swear

For a person like you
Friends won’t be just few.

Running down the road...

2005-07-15T11:25:00.000-07:00

I am running down the road,
with lots of thoughts on head.

The road has been long
neverthless am very happy,
as it hasn't been bumpy.

As far as I have seen
it is all lush green.

Lush green on both sides and
flash lights all the way.
It is just the time to make hay.

Is it time to take strides?
or just do tic tac toe all along
and enjoy the green n the song?

It is good to stand and stare
but it may not be fair.

Let me keep going ahead
with lots of hope in my head.

I am running down the road,
this time with lots of speed and
lots of hope and dream on head!

Infinite loop - Come,See and Conquer

2005-06-27T01:27:00.000-07:00

What is happening?

Just read an article on Millenium Stars - Agassi, M.Schummacher, Tendulkar, Woods and the like. The gist of that article - All these stars - toppers in their chosen field for years, decades - are all fading.

This world is a stage,
again we are actors, and the play is the life we live.

Every scene should end and the play should end or atleast give way to a sequel.

We come, we see, we conquer.
What next?

Do we remain on top forever?
Is the conquered land ours forever?

Cant Tendulkar be the most prolific bastman forever?
Cant M.Schummacher take the podium position #1 forever?

Life is not that simple.
Every year, everyday, every minute we are expected to work on staying on Top.

for (;;)
{
we_come();
we_see();
we_conquer();
}

who writes?

2005-03-10T21:55:00.000-08:00

who plans?
who decides?
who dictates?
who orders?
who requests?
who suggests?
who directs?
who plays?

Who cares?....I am least bothered :-)

When dreams come true ....

2005-02-26T11:58:00.000-08:00

When dreams come true,
or when you get through -
all those good and bad phase,

the smile is on your face
the smile is on to stay for long
and to start play the song -
the song of your life.

Am going through this phase.
Am the happiest person on earth,
and there is no dearth
no dearth of satisfaction.

Let this musical composition -
the song of my life be played forever.

Let me be part of this...
I wish ...
Let me be part of this forever.

There starts another dream!

On a Roll

2005-02-14T04:00:00.000-08:00

For a long time, atleast for me, everything is on a roll.
I am not sure if I have been pushing for things or I should have been pushing so effortlessly that I am not realising that the efforts have been put in.

Now the one in my "Likes" list- another trip to the US is just 2 days away.

I had to go to Kolkata to get my visa done. Kolkata is such a nice place, a nice blend of country side and sky scrapers. All those tall buildings I saw were giving a look of a building that was plastered some 10-15 years ago.

All those broad and nicely laid roads were sheilded on both sides by lake, ditch, garbage or whatever that you will never expect there.

Yellow cabs, hand pulled rickshaws, trams were using the roads while there were a few boats carrying fishermen - fishing in those lakes. You get to see all those in one shot. Remember I mentioned it is a nice blend. It is a metropolitan but still a "poor" state.

There are not many good hotels. You can NOT see a string of Saravana Bhavans, Udupis, Nandhinis there. It was hard for me to find a place for my lunch. I had to settle down in one of the snacks bar in the Metro Shopping Mall.

Again, this shopping mall was a house of some local shops and was not the address of some branded show rooms as one might expect.

I bought a few things - a box of organic tea and a photo frame notable among them - a souvenir I should hold and relish for years to come, until I make my next visit to Kolkata.

Next time I visit I wish I get to see Eden Garden, Ganguly's, Kali temple.

Back to the things that are on a roll for me. I just feel lucky.
Lucky!

Just waiting for things to happen

2005-02-08T06:30:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time, a long time since I last blogged here.

Life is a mystery, all throught out your life you maintain 2 lists -Likes and Dislikes. you yearn for what you like, you dream, you live and you relish your "likes"

But the wonderful part - you keep pushing things from the Likes list to Dislikes list and vice versa.

There would be a point when you dont want to compromise on your Likes list. Do or die, hit or miss, loss or gain you desparately need those items in the Likes list.

Now, there is something that I have maintained in my Likes list for a long time.
The time has come to Live it. I just hope I can live my dream.

Let us see, the answer to this will no more remain cryptic.
We will know soon, 2 more days to go!

Lets go!

Life is a game

2005-01-27T07:27:00.000-08:00

"Life is a game, play it!"

Everyone likes to win every game they play.
But why? Why am I different from everyone in this matter?

I more than "like" to win every game I play.
For me,
you live to win and make fame.
you live to be a "pin up" boy in someway.

Even if I lose
I want to go down fighting and
make a comeback as a lightning!

At the end of the losing battle I would be happy to tell
"I gave it everything I had. I didn't take my chances and that is what this game is all about -- you take your chances or you lose,"

I will give everything I have!
Let my opponent win, I wont lose!
Let him make a fight to win!
Let him realise,
he was better than me today!
Let him relaise,
he is not the best!

Fight it out!

If Andrew FLintoff clebrates a victory over you by taking off and whirling his shirt wildly, watch it.
Pay him with the same coin.
Win him! take off and whirl your shirt wildly!
"The Ganguly way" - that is Ganguly way.

I like to go that way!

Basic needs of a man

2005-01-24T08:26:00.000-08:00

Food, clothing and shelter - the three basic needs of a man.

Give him food
he will come out good!

Give him a dress
as a "pride" he will possess it forever!

Give him an address to live in
he would need a princess to live with!

"Food" - he wants that to be good and tasty!
"Clothing" - he wants that to be fitting and perfect!
"Shelter" - he wants that to be richer and larger!

Give him all three - and
you will agree with me - that
there doesnt end his tree of desire!

His desires grow!
and also his owes.

He owes himself a great effort
to fullfil his desires!

His efforts to borne fruit
he should have been a "born expert" or
atleast learn to become one.

Be the number one to desire and
when you realise that you have won
let there be another desire
to give you the fire
to go ahead, to go ahead of everyone.

who told "desire is the root cause of misery"
Let us rewrite!
"Desire is the root cause of party - and
party is the aftermath of victory"

Food is your party
laurels are your clothing and
the stage is your shelter!

now get your acts together
to be there!

What are you running after?

2005-01-19T08:43:00.000-08:00

I have read somewhere,

"All the world is a stage and everyone in this world is an actor"

O ye, Shakespeare ? hmm I think so he said that.

There is one more,

"This world is a track and everyone in this world is an athelete"

People Run. People run after something.

Some people run after money
Some after pride
and some after lime light.

Stop. Period.

If only you had thought this Sh"ak"e haran is a great philospher in the making, stop there.
Am not.

The above one is not my thoughts. I read that somewhere.

Now continue,

At least in a race there is an end.
you run for 100m Gold, 200m.
Even if it is a Marathon there is a limit when all good things come to an end.

These people run, run all throughout their life.
Can only death stop?

Just then someone reminds me, some people run after everything -money, pride, limelight and name a few more.

"it is really funny to see someone running after one's hat"
It is that moment, you forget everything and just run, run without worries, run without pressure.

its time to take a break

Trans(ce)form

2005-01-08T05:51:00.000-08:00

if thoughts can transform to words and
words can transform to actions - think now.

if emotions can transform to liking and
likings can transform to love - feel now.

if dreams can transform to vision and
visions can transform to reality - dream now.

if actions can transform to laurels and
laurels can transform to crowns - act now.

why dont you
think, feel, dream and act immediately ?

sink in this thought now
it is time to grow.

Come back and tell if you didn't
get laurels and crowns.

Come back and tell if you didn't
enjoy love and life.

Think, feel, dream and react now.